It hit me today: I earned THIS WEEK the same as what I did an ENTIRE YEAR in teaching.
I will be honest; I can’t quite get my head around it. It’s surreal.
And maybe I can’t get my head around it because it’s not like it’s all hit my bank account yet or even like all payments have been made yet, but the deposits are there and it’s all on it’s way so maybe it’s because I need to actually SEE it in my account to get my head around it or MAYBE it’s because I just can’t believe it anyway-
Like- how could I be in this place now, when just over four years ago when I was working in schools we had days where I was literally counting out pennies to go and buy food?
Where every other meal we served to guests and family and friends who came to visit was pizza, and we had to tell everyone how much we loved pizza, because we didn’t want to admit that was all we could afford?
Where we had to juggle bills from one month to the next and there never seemed like there was enough?
How did this even happen?
And yet – of course it happened,
Because if there is one thing that working in teaching gives you –
When you stand in front of a class and one boy tells you he is going to get his Dad to come and ‘punch your head in’
and another says that ‘why should I listen to you when my parents tell me teaching is a crap job and you earn peanuts, why is THAT inspiring?’
and another time when teaching a class full of 15 year old boys and the ONLY time I nearly lost it in front of a class when one of them (bigger than me) squared up to me and couldn’t quite get close enough because of my heavily pregnant belly so threw some stools across the room in my direction instead-
When you go through all of that and you STILL LOVE WHAT YOU DO
You become fearless.
You know that no matter what, you will stand there every single day and you will do what you came here to do, in whatever form that takes
AND YOU WILL LOVE IT even when you go home in tears because your baby growing inside was kicking you so hard when it happened you were terrified you were going to lose it again-
You get back up and go again –
Because that’s what fearlessness and true love for what you do looks like.
(and teachers deserve 100x what they are paid, by the way)
And this time is no different, it’s not about the money,
It’s the fearlessness;
in investing in my mentors when I had no clue around the ‘HOW’ the money to pay for it would come
the decision to launch what I felt like I wanted to launch in whatever way that came out and looked
Plans for everything the future me wishes to create which have ZERO relevance on appearance to my ‘niche’ – like my hypnobirthing workshop and my marriage course and the Work Less Revolution
And that’s how you do it –
You act without fear and you do it your way because you know there is nothing that can happen in business that will break you
And if I had worried about following the RIGHT way then maybe I wouldn’t have ever touched the lives of the kids I worked with in a way that was memorable because of all of those who said ‘do not make friends with your students’;
I wouldn’t have ever written my book as a photographer because photographers don’t write books
I wouldn’t have left my hair accessory business just on the verge of massive success when you are stocked globally and on the cover of magazines and Vogue calls you;
I wouldn’t have left teaching to found my accessory company-
and I wouldn’t have done any of it whatsoever if I was worried about what people thought / said / whether or not my website was ‘ready’ whether I was ‘qualified enough’ whether I COULD or SHOULD do it
Which is the point of this post; isn’t really about the amount, although it is because if you read this and believe that just maybe if it’s possible for me then it might be possible for you too, to no longer have to live in a way that might not be all you dream of –
The point is if you want to make it in the way that you say that you do then you need to FIRST act without fear, and then trust in yourself enough to know you can make it happen,
Because really, it’s time for you now.
Some of you reading this post, I KNOW you are, itching to do it, but WAITING for that time when it’s right because you’ve got the lottery ticket client the big win the confidence the qualification the knowledge the perfect website the perfect e-book template the time when your kids are a bit older when actually
The perfect time to let go of fear is now.
The perfect time to fall in love with your life is now.
The perfect time to take a massive risk is now.
The perfect time to do what you want to do in the way that you want to do it, is now.
And you might not believe it is possible for you but really, belief has nothing to do with it.
It’s about DOING IT FIRST, and then believing because if it is possible for ME then it is possible for you, if you just follow what you are called to do.
(and yes that’s me, with the tinsel, at our Christmas party with my amazing year ten tutor group who I still miss like crazy).