A lovely comment in my inbox this week from one of my incredible clients ‘loving your energy online at the moment!’
But this is something closer to the truth-
The words don’t come easily.
The energy, doesn’t come easily
Every day I sit down and my desk and wrestle with the page and the truth about creativity is that it is childish, it is wilful, headstrong, and yet ultimately magnificent which is why we crave more of it;
And yet to harness it every single day
Means you sit, and you create, and most of what you create will quite possibly be awful, pointless, frustrating efforts which you will want to bin;
And yet just sometimes you will come alight;
Literally, neurons triggering and flashing inside the very nature of your being as you come into alignment with creation
With your words / dreams / plans / art / worship
Whatever it is you desire more of.
It will almost never come easily. (you don’t mine diamonds with ease)
You will wonder who would ever like this, who would ever buy it, whether it is good enough, whether anyone really cares anyway or whether your creations and what you do are just part of the noise
And that’s why you carry on regardless because the point is NEVER about the end result
It’s about YOU being connected ultimately with the work you want to do, what you believe in, the message you want to share
I didn’t wake up last week and decide to pursue £11k in my business, it was not THE PLAN
The plan for us as creatives and entrepreneurs is to simply show up and commit to doing the work that we love FIRST
Not the work that we think is going to bring the money (which indeed is crass and ultimately will eat itself anyway or at the very least you as you become a slave to whatever brings in the money and the lowest price you can farm yourself out for)
Even when it’s hard
Even when you have two children who are also noisy and wilful and one giant dog and two stray kittens who are needier than most humans yet you’ve adopted them this week anyway and you have all of these pulls at your attention, AT your creative desire
Which in itself taunts you with the blank page and the blank canvas and the roll left unshot and the plan left half formed and the creations that just AREN’T SPEAKING TO YOU
And the energy!?!
You feel none of that.
Energy? YOU ONLY GET THE ENERGY WHEN YOU’RE DOING WHAT IT IS YOU ARE CALLED TO DO when you’re in the place where the words DO flow and the images ARE being drawn in your head and you can think of nothing else because it’s all faded into a traffic like hum around you and minutes and hours and flying past and you want this never to end
But it does
And you have to do it all over again tomorrow
The struggle, the search, the push into finding that space and THAT is the energy that we harness and become part of and alive and alight for –
You want that energy, you want to show up online or offline or in your work and your art as an unstoppable force well then don’t stop
It DOES stop. And it stops every single day and every single day you have a God-given creative DUTY to show up and GET yourself into that place of energy and alignment where you are creating those things you dream of and it’s NEVER ABOUT
Will this sell
Will they read
Will they buy
Will they care
Because when you care about those things or even consider them again, it stops.
Waiting for you to come back
And yet isn’t it SO hard when you NEED the money, you NEED the clients, and you can’t exist without those things?
Yes and you need to put all that to one side and trust those things will come as a result of doing what you love, I find it so ultimately depressing that one of the theories trotted out online at the moment is you need to create something that you have to TEST FIRST to see if it works, or you have to have a BIG LIST or something before you have to create what you truly desire-
Artists ARE entrepreneurs but how can you ever dare even consider testing what you LOVE first
Like you have to test your heart
Sure, go ahead, perform the ‘testing’
do / don’t create
wait for the big list
wait for the perfect website
wait for the testimonies
wait for your art and dreams to die off in the meantime-
while you watch those who live for their work come alive, energised, harnessing the energy, sharing and showering that glitter everywhere indeed;
And there will be failures of course!
And indeed, most of my list will probably never read this post
They might not love it, connect, or create or take any action based as a result
But if you want the results that come along with the ENERGY that you burn with for your art and your business and your very LIFE (life after all, the ultimate artwork of our design)
You create regardless
You show up every day
You wrestle with the blank page, the blank canvas, the unshot roll, the ideas which seem to stay stuck in stubborn recess
And sometimes you will drag it out with pliers
But it WILL come
and like the majority of my tribe who understand that the #worklessrevolution is not about working less but about getting rid of the stuff that ultimately eats away at your soul and dreams and doing far MORE work but the work that you love, that your soul cries out to do- in the unique and beautiful way only you can –
If you want more of that, the work that you love, the creativity, the ENERGY that comes when you’re alight for what you love?
Then you do that, first,
And you LET GO or don’t even consider the end result (because you trust in the results and your own capabilities as both creative and entrepreneur, and you KNOW they aren’t mutually exclusive concept)
And every single day, you do it.
Even when it’s hard, you have nothing to say, you feel flat and lifeless, and you have kids / cats/ partners dragging at your clothing and attentions and time –
You do it anyway, because it is wilful and defiant and yet truly magnificent and you marvel at how it comes so easily once it does –
And you SHARE THAT – the creation, the process, the failings, the inspiration, the words or images or pictures because that perfect smokescreen is BORING and fading now, glossy hand on cocktail perfection DYING –
Nobody cares about that any more because-
They care about you, how you got there, why you do this, what you create and how you create it and what you can share with them that will truly rock their world
But of course, you only get to do this
If you prioritise creation FIRST, no matter how tough that is.
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